As mentioned in my previous posts, my husband and I got COVID and we are self-isolating now, just the two of us. What I didn't mention was that my son David, was sent to my mother's place in order to avoid having him catch COVID as well.
Truth be told, as suspected, it is extremely hard and unbearable to be separated from our baby. He is only two and a half month old and to say that we miss him terribly is an understatement. I have been crying my eyes out every time we FaceTime. Today was no exception, when I saw his little chubby face, I just couldn't hold it anymore. Tears came rolling down my face as I kept thinking to myself, you gotta smile in front of David.
Some people may think that he is just a baby and doesn't know any better. However, every time we FaceTimed, he had recognized me and was able to use the limited blabber noises that he made to try to respond to me calling his name. Words can't describe how much I miss him.
This makes me think of all the people that had to be under quarantine and be separated from their loved ones. It has been six days since I last saw David. It's a long time for a new mother and such a young baby to be apart.
I keep thinking back and blaming myself for getting COVID. How I could have avoided it all. But the reality is that it's only the matter of time before we would get it. It's so easy to catch it these days and so many people have it. So I really shouldn't be so harsh on myself.
So until I meet with my son again, I will probably continue to bawl my eyes out whenever we FaceTime together. And I hope that I recover quicker so I can eventually meet with him sooner than later.
I would like to end this post wishing everyone a safe, healthy and happy life. Don't let COVID gets you down, we've got this!
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